Lonely in a whole new chapter

Assalamu'alaikum

Hi there dear readers. It has been a while since I last posted something here. How has things been going for all of you? I've been busy lately. Couldn't even catch my breath. Things have been hectic these couple of weeks. Works are just a never ending story. And I'm here again in the ever so beautiful land; Sabah. I'm falling in love with this place every time I came here. Cannot lie to you on that  (insert angel face here) :P 

However, there was always something that would bothers me when I'm here. The fact that my dear is on the other land. The fact that I couldn't be beside him whenever he needs me the most. The fact that I couldn't portrait or even try my best shot on being the perfect wife. It's heart breaking for me to know that I couldn't even make breakfast for him, ironing his work clothes, do the laundry and many other things that is related to the job of a wife. It saddens me whenever the thought came to me. Sometimes I wonder what's the good I got from all of these. I know there is always a silver lining behind the grey clouds but the uncertainty will forever haunts me. I know I have to be positive with all of this, but you know how women and all their strange hormones works. Everytime you try to persuade your brain from overthinking stuff, you will ended up crying in your pillows thirty minutes later. Silly hormones. Haha

Anyhow things will past by even if you don't feel like it. Time will just leave you without warning and I can't forever be sadden about this. I MUST find something to do, somethings that could distract my brain and my silly hormones from over thinking about things; especially during the weekends..huhu. So far, I have developed interests towards beneficial things/hobby but it didn't lasts due to insufficient materials (I will update on it later). Do you guys have any idea on how to make yourself feel busy and distracted? Maybe I could try it out somehow. :) 

I'm out of the house today. Trying to mingle around strangers with the silent approach. You know, just walk past them and feel their presence even though I don't see any positive outcome from it. Hahaha.. I'm just kidding guys. I'm not a lunatic :P I'm just doing some window shopping in the mall. Hehehe. They say shopping could heal you. Well I guess it is partly true because when you go shopping without money, that would definitely add in the sadness in yourself. Hahaha : D So as I was having a lonely lunch, the boy besides me asked why am I eating on my own? Such a cheeky one! Hehe. So I told him, my family is not at home :') Suprisingly he is satisfied with the answer and kept coming back to check whether I ate my veges or not! Hahah! I couldn't help but have my dessert as well, because I missed my husband. We used to have a romantic dinner here, along with the dessert :')

So the sugar rush has helped me thinking positive. Has helped me reflecting on my behavior lately. And do helped drugging the silly hormones to a controllable state :D I guess this will be it for now. I'm going to find something nice for me today. I've been doing a lot for others instead of me. So I guess some shopping wouldn't hurt the bank :) I'm off for now. Thank you for reading this entry! 

~Husna S